This weekend has been a rollercoaster of emotions. I was so close to a goal only to find out I would have to wait a bit longer to achieve it. Last weeks card of the week was Mountain, which was about delays and how we handle them. This was my stride meeting that mountain. So how did I handle it and what did I learn?
First, I sat my ass down. I realized I wasn't going to know my emotions about the situation until I did. Stillness allows me to process my emotions as they happen rather than running from them by making myself busy. Second, I realized I wouldn't be able to create the art and write the messages I wanted to while grieving. Sometimes I can, sometimes I can't. This was one of those times. I gave myself permission to skip my tarot pull of the week. I had to decide, did I want it done or did I want it done well?
Stillness gives me the clarity to know exactly what I want to create and the conditions I need to create it. If I'm mourning, for however short or long, I need to mourn. This may include creation and movement. But sometimes it just means napping, eating, exclaiming my feelings and doing very little. Stillness allows me to sit in my body and let it do what it wants and needs. I'll get back up. But I needed a moment.
We all need to give ourselves permission to just be. Production isn't inherently valuable, we've just been taught to think it is. We are mammals. We eat, we sleep, we reproduce if we want. We roam and we have joy and we have rage. That is to be human. And if we can't be human, how can we create? Or what's the quality of what we create? If we don't get to tap into the things that nourish us, how are we starving? Stillness is a chance to tap in and figure out some of the answers to these questions.
How have you given yourself permission to face your grief? Your disappointment? Have you been kind to yourself? Do you give yourself the time you truly need? Or are you pushing yourself based off someone else's clock? Someone else's belief system? What are some ways you can utilize stillness to work through these matters? You deserve time. You deserve moments. You deserve stillness. It is a human right.
If you're interested in booking a stillness consult, go here and book a consult for 30 minutes or an hour. Feel free to use these questions as journal prompts, meditation material or something to create art with. Please be gentle with yourself this week.
Much love, Danielle.